1. There was a time when you made me feel less dead. There was a time that even when I felt like I couldn’t breathe and even when my thoughts hit the back of my knees and knocked me to the ground, all you had to do was wrap your arms around me and everything would cease. Now I don’t know what to feel anymore.
2. I know I was never good with words, but honestly, even the most articulate human being wouldn’t be able to piece the right words together to tell you how much I adore you.
3. And I know you tried to save me. I know you tried to stop me from suffocating under the weight of my own delusions, but the truth is I don’t know if I want to be saved anymore. I think I stopped wanting a long time ago and just became a ghost, constantly in a state of desolation. This isn’t your fault.
4. I wish I wouldn’t have mentioned every 4 a.m suicidal thought and I wish I wouldn’t have told you that these wounds across my arms were open and I wish I would have just kissed you instead of being so damn insecure. Maybe we’d still be together. Maybe.
5. I’m sorry.
facebook post: share if u love ur mom, ignore if u want her to die
me: rip mom